Sometimes, I forget my husband. I forget that my husband has fears & doubts & worries. Partly because I see him as a pillar of strength, the unwavering head of our family. Mostly because I can’t remove my head from my ass long enough to consider him. & that’s just awful. I forget that he’s [...]
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On Friday night, I met the Bloggess at her pink typewriter as she wrote out witty sayings, observations, & predictions for the bloggers lined up in front of her. I was her last. & she wrote: I have nothing left. After four hours of typing, observing, & fawning fans, she had nothing left. & I [...]
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After a week like last week (down four pounds!) I’m a little miffed to see the scale not moving this week, even though it could be expected. & I realized – I need a new goal. A specific, hard-number goal. It was so easy to drop the baby weight & then the Harpie weight. They [...]
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Motherhood. It’s different in different stages. Nothing ever stays the same. Ch-ch-ch-changes. I’m tired. Hell, I don’t know what to write. When Sarah & Kit & I began discussing a progressive post, aka a post that started in one blog & continued in the others, I got tingles down to my toes about the possibilities [...]
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I really do have the sweetest husband alive. Last night, we crawled into bed. I wore a grungy old ADPi tshirt from college, a pair of his boxers, with zit cream & lime-green rollers in my hair (HEY, DON’T JUDGE MY NOD TO 1950, OKAY?!) & he leaned over to kiss me. “Babe,” he said. [...]
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I went for a walk tonight. I had such a good day today emotionally that I just knew I had to walk for therapy. So I hit the pavement at twilight with the cool air & setting sun. My iPod was dead. It was a blessing to just hear my breathing & padding footsteps. & [...]
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As a blogger/writer/whatever you want to call me as long as it’s nice, I get a lot of inspiration from other bloggers. What they say, what they’re feeling. When they’re strong enough to step forward, it oddly gives me a sense of strength. & AllisonO hit the nail on the head of something that’s been [...]
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I know, it’s been awhile since I’ve written something of quality. It’s not that I haven’t had a million thoughts running through my head, it’s just finding the time & frame of mind to sit down & write. If there’s one thing I’ve discovered, it’s that having a newborn escalates every task to take twelve [...]
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Which is a rational reaction when you wake up at 6:30am on a Saturday, roll over & snuggle your husband, murmuring “Thanks for taking night duty, babe. I really needed the sleep.” and he rubs his bleary eyes & says, “What are you talking about?” My heart stopped. My entire world stopped. Because I realized [...]
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I’m not ready. I should be ready, right? I’ve had 9 months. In some ways, I’ve had longer since I’ve been pregnant all but 6 weeks in the past year. I SHOULD BE READY. But I’m not. I’m not ready to walk away from work. I’m not ready to give up quiet nights with Nate. [...]
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