Well, this is unfortunate.

While trying to eat a peanut butter cracker that was precariously balance between my forefinger & thumb, I slipped while aiming for my mouth.

& it landed on my chin(s). And STUCK.

Hello, tasty glob of gooey goodness on my face. (perverted thoughts in 3…2….1….)

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There are donuts

about 30 feet away from me, teasing my senses with their glazed chocolatey goodness. Sugar, butter, fried dough, caramels…ohhhhhhh foodgasm coming on. Where did these donuts come from? Who brought them? Are they manna from Heaven?

Now, how to get into the box without looking like a fatass, considering the four skinny people standing in front of said delightful box?

Obviously, I should paid more attention in Ninja 101…

Hungry, hungry hippo.

What I ate for lunch, in order of consumption:

1) an apple
2) a bowl of Lucky Charms (non-chocolate, unfortch)
3) a banana
4) another bowl of Lucky Charms
5) a piece of oven-fried chicken with 1 cup macaroni & cheese
6) a can of Coke to wash it down

and that was just to take the edge off the hunger. I don’t feel full, but at least I’m not 2 seconds from gnawing my arm off like a rabid raccoon.

::blair eyes bag of popcorn:: That looks promising as an afternoon snack that won’t last past the hour.

Things that are stereotypical.

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A pregnant woman making a Taco Bell run at 10pm?  Unfathomable icon wink Things that are stereotypical.

Even my fat pants don’t fit.

img 2064 200x300 Even my fat pants dont fit.Gee…I can’t imagine why.   That would be post-dinner bloat, folks.  I pulled out the maternity pants, & I do believe I will be sporting them for the first time tomorrow.  I give in.  I throw in the towel & wave the white flag.  I am no longer a soldier or a slave to my Bella Band.

So here we sit at 11 weeks, 4 days…I wish I had written about the appointment yesterday when it was fresh & I was still shaking, but now I am so simply elated that it’s all I can manage to not run screaming naked through my neighborhood.  (okay, maybe not naked because that’s no longer such a trim sight)  Truly, I sit here full of chicken parmesan & Italian coffee, practically dripping with smug, motherly satisfaction.

I had my second OB check-up yesterday…milestone #1, since I miscarried Harpie 3 days before my 12 week appointment.  When I woke up yesterday, I felt jittery.  Nervous.  On edge.  But still in control.  Until I sat alone on the exam table, wrapped in a pink sheet that opened to the front.  & I lost it — hyperventilating, fighting tears, & choking on the overwhelming fear that history would repeat itself.  For 10 minutes, I sat on the exam table, staring at the stirrups & their purple Mirena covers, thinking about how much I hate the color purple.  & how I would hate it even more if something happened.  How I would never be able to look at the color purple ever again should something be wrong with HJ.  & while I gasped in short breaths, I begged God to bring me peace.  To simply be with me & for my baby to please, please…have a heartbeat.

After eternity, the doctor knocked softly & came in — I had never met her before, but I immediately liked her smile.  She shook my hand, chatted briefly, & then said, “I need to talk to you about November.”  Have you ever seen through panic??  It’s like driving through a fog.  I managed to stutter out details of waking up to blood & hearing the horrible words, “You are completely dilated.”  & God bless her, she held up her & said, “You know what?  Let’s take a break.  Lay back.”  I obliged & within 1 minute, the cold doppler roamed my pelvis & the most glorious sound ever…

WOOSH WOOSH WOOSH WOOSH

My eyes flew up to hers & I grinned like a Cheshire Cat.  She grinned back & said, “160 beats per minute!”  We listened for a minute, then I let my ass hang off the end of the table until she announced that my cervix is on lock-down.  All of a sudden, the purple footies on the stirrups felt warm, soft, & I realized that purple isn’t such an awful color after all.
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