I’m going, going, going, & I am so tired. So tired.
I want to take a deep breath & soak in Christmas & be still. I want to cherish my family & worship freely & sip a glass of wine by the Christmas tree. I want to reflect on the story of Christmas & sit in awe of the mysteries wrapped under the tree.
But I am so tired & my to-do list still feels a thousand miles long. Still pulling 9-hour days at the office under the shadow of expectations of a mother-in-law, the pressure of hosting Christmas Eve, the urge to find Nate the perfect present.
& I am reminded of Ann Voskamp’s words of last week: ”Whenever Christmas begins to burden, it’s a sign that I’ve taken on something of the world and not of Christ.”
Tonight, I want to close my eyes & shut out the world.
Tomorrow, I want to wake up with family & an energy to face Christmas without nerves or expectations. To let my heart return to it’s normal pace. To simply embrace it’s chaos & story & family & worship.
