Today sucked. Not like a PPD suck, but like an average-run-of-the-mill-human-life suck. Which is welcomed to some degree that I’m not anywhere near close to needing another psych admission, although the suckitude of this day makes me thankful that it is roughly T-2 hours until bedtime. News from a friend had my heart both aching & soaring. My office was freezing to a form of torture throughout the day. My zipper got stuck in my left breast. I have pureed turkey in my hair. & tonight, we got the bill in the mail for my hospital stay. I’ll spare you the details, but that crashing sound you heard around 6:15pm EST was a part of my soul wailing.
p.s. consider this an open invitation to anyone who claims I lied about my hospital stay to please step forward & pay said bill.Obviously, this day pales in comparison to many other days & to many other people & their even worse days. But I still wanted to drown my sorrows in a plate of cookies & then go see a certain fine piece of jailbait take off his shirt in a certain vampire movie ALL BY MYSELF in a dark theatre. So that I could pretty much ignore all life-form existence.
But I didn’t.
I went for a run instead. & then I wrote all of my angry rantings out in a place that you can’t see. neener neener neener! & I’m considering going for another run because I don’t feel like my frustration with this day is adequately thwarted. But at least I’m not 3,000 calories into a plate of chocolate chip cookies & on the phone with my psychiatrist begging for sleeping pills. That is so two months ago.
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One redeeming quality to this day? I realized that the Knights That Say ‘NI’ from Monty Python sound like Sean Connery if he did a tank of helium.
Good for you for going for a run! I hope it helps destress you as much as it does for me.
Blair I'm so very glad you went out and ran! I saw your tweet and was worried. Insurance and fighting them sucks, but I was hoping it wouldn't ruin your day. I like the journal idea! I think I need to borrow it
And also–that's some bullshit that people would even begin to think you made that up.
Thank you just inspired me to step away from the cupcakes and hit the pavement. I'm sorry bad days suck and hospital bills are the worst, we had one for over 500 all for a bandaid and neosporin. I still makes me mad to think about it.
Ps i agree with Jess some ppl are just mean and full of bs
Good job with the run! I was in a bad mood the other week and went out and walked 2 miles and came home laughing and in a great mood! Being outdoors is soothing to the soul. Oh and I've been freezing most of the day as well, so you're not alone
A good run does wonders for your stress level, doesn't it? I'm glad the suckiness of your day was of the more normal variety – and now you can go see jailbait later and (hopefully) really enjoy it!
The run is good. Everything else…THE SUCK!
What it is about the south that everyone thinks just bc it's 100 outside means it's ok for it to be 60 inside? I have the same problem.
i've been an avid blog stalker for awhile and haven't commented yet. i had to say, as a girl participating in McFatty Monday and working my butt off to lose baby poundage, WAY TO GO for hitting the pavement instead of the cookies. because it's so easy to do the latter. i hope your days gets better!! *hugs*
Nice job on the run. I needed some inspiration since DH is popping in a movie, and it was a little tempting to skip the workout and watch with him, bag of mini-reeses in my lap. Also, your reference to S.C. made me think of the Saturday Night Live where "he" is on Celebrity Jeopardy! (with Will Farrell as Alex Trebek). Funny stuff.
OMG, Angela. "BELOW. BE-LOW ME." ::dies::
::positive bubbly me says:: I'm so proud of you for running off some steam instead of indulging in cookies! ::real me says:: Eat the damn cookies! I cant have any more skinny friends, and the more you run the more guilty I feel!
Insurance really isn't all that great! I'm not trying to start a political debate, but I seriously think that either all private insurance company deductibles, co-pays, and co-insurances need to be seriously regulated…or everybody gets 100% socialized health care coverage. FOR REAL. Because our insurance isn't all that fantastic and we have to pay A LOT of money out of pocket before anything is covered…meaning we try our absolute best to skip out on any doctor visits (with the exception of our son's…his is important no matter what)…and I could probably really use a doctor visit right now because I am so incredibly sick and having a hard time breathing, but we just can't afford that crap right now! That being said, I'm sorry. I feel your pain! <3 If it helps, even if you only send $10/month, they can't do anything to do you, you're paying on it.
Running is good! I ran the other day when I got realllllllly mad at a certain someone *points to husband*, and I felt a lot better afterwords. Good job, Blair!
Today must have been an all around bad day – sucktastic here too. However, unlike you I choose the Cookies….in the form of a giant box 'o JR mints and a bad movie! And now I'm going to bed!
sean connrey…"suck it, trebek" wait…do you watch snl? anyway. look at you running it out. nicely played.
Yay for you! Your post really "hit home" for me in the "Finding Healthy Ways to Manage Stressful / Sad / Depressing Situations." You are truly an inspiration to me as someone who is experiencing MAJOR PPA.
You go, girl!
ok so i guess i'm eating that plate of cookies you passed up…you do realize that those feelings don't just disappear, right? They are recycled into the brain of someone else who has less willpower then you. ie me. way to be strong. maybe tomorrow i will not eat cookies, too.
we all have these days but good for you for taking it out on the pavement!! and just like yourself with cookies i attempt to refrain from massive consumption of my dear friend Belvedere and take it to the gym too!!
hope tomorrows AMAZING!!
Your Sean Connery on helium comment made me giggle. I was contemplating a similar thing that you were, in that I'm glad to have run-of-the-mill crappy days, because that means that my depression is under control. I hope tomorrow is a better day, and nothing ends up in your hair.
Yay for running….I feel awful if I don't work out.
For what its worth, we owe $1500 from when DS was born in November & pay $25/month…..hey no interest = )
Good for you on the running. With this humidity, I would have said screw you to the running and been all over that plate of cookies with a tall glass of cold milk. MMMMMMM!! ;9
Oh sorry you had a bad day
Good work for going for a run and having a vent to your feelings! That's healthy! 
And how about those coconuts from The Knights? The cheapest horse out there haha
I was thisclose to running off to see Eclipse by myself. thisfreakingclose. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that going to the movies without pants is generally frowned upon. Stupid society.
Wait..I'm not much of a comment reader..but I do always read your posts…Did someone actually accuse you of lying about your hospital stay????????That is the singlemost disgusting thing I have heard in my life.
I've had some pretty sucky days as well but my will power is not as strong as yours because I would have been all over those cookies! Also let me tell you that Eclipse was A-W-E-S-O-M-E and you neeeed to go watch it. I believe I'll be going again
I just can't get enough.
yeah for a run! And you know what? He's NOT jail bait anymore!! He's legal! I went last night and drooled even though I could LITERALLY be his MOM – ugh, so nasty. It's the smile, really
The acting? Sucked. The men? HAWT. So let it put a smile on your face, girl! Take some 'me' time!!
Good for you getting out and running those frustrations away! I try and do that too – and it's a good time to think and work through issues ALONE. I can't imagine what you are facing with your hospital stay – I had 2 ER visits in one week and had to pay a LOT of $$. I'm sure overnight stays aren't even comparable….
I hope you simply kick today's ass! I can't even run to the end of the block, so good for you taking out your frusterations on the pavement. I can be found behind said plate of cookies if you need someone to devour them for you.
:::hugs and smoochies:::
Yay for a run! Sometimes working out is the best way to relieve frustrations. And don't worry about the cookies, I took care of those.
Your post made me think of my favorite quote from Legally Blond…
"Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy, and Happy People just don't kill there Husbands."
I'm glad you made the choice to go for the run, despite having such a craptastic day at least your burned some extra calories
((Hugs))
refer to your previous post, reading it should make you feel better. you have an awesome family who loves you. dwell on the good when it gets bad.
hugs.
That was SO me on Monday. But what did I do? Go for a run like the smart people do? No. Drank an entire bottle of wine and then paid for it with a headache from hell the next day.
Good job to you!
People actually doubted your hosp stay? Wow. The nerve.
I hate bills.
That's all I got for now.
I totally agree about this whole Southern people and the AC thing. Really. If it's 70 degrees in the office in the winter, and 60 degrees in the summer, why do you look at me like I've lost my mind when I'm wearing short sleeves in the winter and a sweater in the summer? There is nothing like the joy of sitting in a boiling hot car when you are frozen to the bone b/c of office AC.
Hospital bills blow. You can make payments on them, just call and tell them what you can afford. Make sure your insurance has paid out what they are going to. Mine denied a bunch of stuff because they "didn't know if I had other insurance that might be paying" and they didn't want to pay if they didn't have to.
Yay you!! Way to handle it.
i live for the very human bad days versus the darker ones. and hospitals bills can suck it.
Love SNL Connery…'I'll take SWORDS for $1000.' That's 'S' words….
I'm still learning to handle sucky days without drowning my face in bread, chocolate, and peanut butter.
So I'm pretty much impressed that you would consider a SECOND run. Maybe I'll take a cue and go for a walk next time I want to down a jar of peanut butter?
Blair… Way to go Hitting the pavement! I hate hospital bills and I just might have heard you here in Arizona *wink*!
I am going for a swim now thank you for your inspiration keep on blogging!!!
p.s. my A/C bill in a two bedroom apartment this month ( set at 80) was $150.00!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Praying it is winter soon! LOL
Laura
Good for you for taking a run! I remember a couple of months ago the day was in the shitter just trying to get out of the house to go on a hike. I about said "F it!" and didn't go but once we got outside, it was wonderfully relaxing.
And The Monty Python has got to be the most quotable movies EVA.