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To the friends my father lost.
To those that my mother cared for.
To the men & women who serve us now.
Thank you.
Portions, portions, portions.
31 May posted by
I fell off the bandwagon.
okay. I didn’t really FALL off it considering there were 8 days in there where I didn’t have a choice on what to eat, 3 days before that when I didn’t eat at all, & then this past week has been more about getting my feet back on the ground versus worrying what I put in my mouth (insert dirty pun HERE). & as a result, I gained weight. Not because I wasn’t eating a specific food, but because I WASN’T SPECIFIC ABOUT MY FOOD.
I wasn’t specific about eating all my veggies. Watching my portions when people brought us food. Just saying “no” to a chocolate chip cookie during a movie. I wasn’t specific about eating an egg every morning, so I wasn’t getting the protein to keep me from being hungry. Small, simple things that make a HUGE difference.
I’ve learned my lesson. My jeans are tight on me, my shirts are tighter, I feel just..ick. & I’m back on the bandwagon.
Not that I look BAD, per say. Yep, me in a bathing suit!! (note to self: more running is required to tone legs. you’ll thank yourself in august) But I just need to keep losing. & you LUCKY DUCKS, not only a picture, but a video, too!
Can I just say that sometimes, vlogs make me stabby? Because I NEVER take time to get pretty for them. So you get to see me with a MUFFIN TOP over my jeans with my too-tight tshirt that my mother-in-law washed in hot water & then dried on heavy-duty while I was in the hospital (thought that counts, Blair. thought that counts). With no makeup, hair slapped up in a loop because that was (somehow) better than wearing it down air-dried.
yeah. I hate all of you that look so darling & well-done in yours. I should put more effort into vlogs, but let’s just consider MY vlogs quality over vanity. Or something like that. & you know, my SERIOUS HARDCORE muffin top in this vlog is just inspiration to keep losing:
Also, we’ll pull the Flip out next time for better quality, but you get the gist. Watch your portions. Use a smaller plate. Talk like Paula Deen. I even went a little heavy on the portion I made for myself & ended up not eating all of it, so give yourself permission to do that if you overload it!
Also, about a month ago someone sent me a very sweet email about anti-depressants in correlation with weight gain & my worries & I promised her I’d address them – YES. I am worried. I gained 30 lbs on Celexa in college & I refuse to do that again. I think the anti-depressants just make you more…apathetic towards the food you eat. Like you know that the cookie will go straight to your hips but the drug that mellows you out JUST DOESN’T CARE, MMKAY?! But I do know this – maintaining my self-esteem right now is just as important as taking that tiny pink pill in the morning. Maintaining my weight, something I’ve worked hard for & feeling good about myself ARE MEDICATIONS in their own, special little way. It’s not about becoming Flexi Lexi Anorexi on y’all. I don’t want to be trivial & petty in a time like this. But I also know that it would be MORE depressing to pack the pounds back on & watch the scale go up at this time. So Nutrisystem, THANK YOU. THANK YOU for controlling my portions for me 90% of the time. THANK YOU for telling me exactly what to eat. It takes one more thing off my mind & in a weird way, y’all are working on my physical AND mental health with me.
So, what are you doing about portions? I’m using a food scale this week for the first time ever – eek! I’ll let you know how that goes.
What are you focusing on this week? If you’ve fallen off the bandwagon before to get back on, I WOULD LOVE some advice & encouragement, please! I hope you had MUCH better success this past week.
required disclaimer: i am being supplied with nutrisystem food by nutrisystem, free of cost to me. sweet, right? but i assure you, i began nutrisystem on my own in january, spent my own money for 4 months, & fully endorse the program. i’m just thankful that they’ll be helping me out on my last leg of the journey! to join me on the Nutrisystem program and to receive a special offer, call 1-877-704-0597 or click here.
I have no creative title for this because Harrison just puked in my mouth.
28 May posted by
My child threw up in my mouth today.
You read that correctly.
MY CHILD. THREW UP. IN MY MOUTH.
It started off so sweetly innocent. He sat on the bed, shaking a sock happily while I folded laundry & I got the urge to learn over to play with him. So I did. Because I don’t fight those urges – I soak them up when they come crashing in. So we’re giggling, smothering eachother in slobber, I tickle him, &….
MY CHILD THREW UP IN MY MOUTH.
At first, I didn’t know what happened. ”What the hell is THAT taste?” I asked & then OH EM GEE ::brain click:: The worst part? Having to hold it in my mouth until I could get to the bathroom to spit it out. Sour. Acid. In my mouth. If you’ve never tasted regurgitated Nutramigen…well, you’re one lucky folk. It tastes like hot, moldy, sour athletic socks worn by an entire football team for an entire season, then left out in the summer rains & 105-degree heat, then blended into a HOT MARGARITA OF SKANKY ASS.
I’m not exaggerating.
I ran to the bathroom, Harry on my hip, & spit into the sink. & spit. & spit. & spit until I was pretty sure I was spitting out pieces of my own stomach, & then I took Nate’s powered toothbrush to my teeth, tongue, cheeks, & even that dangly thing in the back (enter gag reflex jokes here, here, & here. Just don’t tell Nate). & immediately felt zero sympathy for myself & all the sympathy in the world for Harrison, who lives with this on a daily basis. No wonder he’s so pissy sometimes.
As someone so aptly deemed it on Twitter, I feel like I just got hazed into parenthood. 7 months later.
You can never have too many blankets.
28 May posted by
Giveaway is closed!
Thanks for entering & the winner has been contacted! 
This is a giveaway! It’s awesome, fun, & you win free stuff! But if you don’t want to, just skip over it & don’t bitch. Because it’s not my fault you’re a grouch that doesn’t enjoy something free. Otherwise, come on in & have fun! smoochies! p.s. there are typically pictures of harrison in these bad boys, which always makes it worth it.
Thankful on Thursday.
27 May posted by
Happy Thursday, y’all. I hope you are doing well – I’ve been taking the week to just simmer, reflect, exercise for therapy, etc. It’s been wonderful & tomorrow, I clean my house, which I am so looking forward to. But for the meantime, tea & a hot cup of tea while Nate showers (mmm, naked!) & a wee bit of sweetness from this week.
1. Being home with these boys.
2. Fun inside jokes about underware with friends.
3. Sister getting her cartilage pierced today. I’m just proud that she did something she wanted, stood up for it, & manned up. & it totally suits her, even though The Momma said she draws the line at tongue rings.
4. Gorgeous flowers all over the house from friends & family. Daisies, roses, etc. It smells heavenly. & it reminds me of how much love flows between me & friends & family. So, so thankful for them.
5. For the sacrifice my family made last week for me.
6. For ugliest face contests in public settings over cupcakes & sweet tea.
7. For women that are strong & rally & uplift, rather than tear down. For women that raise awareness, fight stigmas, & take life by the balls. Thank you – y’all inspire me to be better.
8. For tomatoes. & a husband that will run downstairs before the sky opened to secure new wiring & twine to ensure their survival. Because y’all, these are MY TOMATOES. I have lovingly tended them, fertilized, & pruned. I don’t know why it is that us “gardeners” become all wacky about our plants, but it’s like they’re a piece of me & my ability to nurture. Maybe if I can grow a tomato, I can raise a kid…? ha!
9. Speaking of tomatoes, I think per usual Thursday evening, we’re getting rain. Which I love because it makes everything smell so fresh & feel so new.
10. Speaking of fresh & clean, the way my husband smells after a shower. ::swoon::
Tomorrow, I’ll be giving away the softest baby blanket ever, so be sure to drop back in. & I hope y’all have wonderful Memorial Day weekends full of hot dogs & working out in the yard. & just…being you.
