all the ups & downs & all the in-between
it’s not perfect but it’s everything i dreamed of
~joy williams
Dear Harrison,
Six months. Half a year. Where has the time flown? & if it flew by this quickly, then I might as well pull out the banners because it feels like tomorrow will be your first birthday. It sounds so cliche, but I truly cannot believe it has been six months since we first came shattering into each other’s lives. Some days when I’m rocking you at night, because you have just learned the loveliness that is rocking, I imagine you are fresh home from the hospital as I close my eyes & sniff behind your ear to inhale that baby scent. But then I realize that you’re legs are already draping down into my lap, your hand is curled around the back of my neck, & while you are still my little boy, you simply are not a fresh newborn anymore.
Which is a relatively new occurrence. Two weeks ago, you still laid around like an adorable lump with a dimpled smile that cooed occasionally & barfed a lot. Then on March 27, you sat up independently for the first time & BAM! you became this little man that could wear button-down shirts & is off to Harvard Law like, next week. Sitting up opened your entire world & this incredible personality flooded out of this tiny, 16-lb body. Harrison, you are such a sweet little man. In some ways, it is hard for Momma to say that after all we’ve been through together, but you turning into such a sweet, content boy. Your face lights up when you see those in your “Circle of Trust,” but you are quick to side-eye anyone you do not recognize. “Who the hell are you & did I give you permission to exist?” your intense gaze seems to question them.
(Daddy & I are very proud of this particular feature as we believe it makes you a kindred spirit to Stewie Griffen of Family Guy.)
Harrison, my new favorite discovery of you is how FUNNY you are. Your laughter is absolutely infectious – a deep belly laugh from the soul, mixed with peals of delight. Every night before bath time, we play our favorite game – I hold you while Daddy sneaks up & tickles your side. You shriek with joy, giggle, & then throw your arms around my neck as if to playfully say, “Save me, Momma!”
But Harrison…YOU are the one that saves me. Weekly. Daily. Hourly. On my good days, you are my motivation to succeed at everything I do at work, home, & in my marriage. On the bad days, you give me reason to survive until the next good day. Until the next day that your smile will fill my heart with warmth & you squeal for me, knowing that in that moment, I’ll be ready to “save” you.
Have the past six months been perfect? Absolutely not. Has it been a classic fairytale of mother & baby? No. But it’s our fairytale, Harrison. & you will always be my little knight in shining armor that saved me.
I love you, for the next six months and the next six hundred years.
Love,
Momma
Harrison, 6 months.
What a cutie pie!! They grow up SO fast it is incredible. My little guy just turned 4 and I still feel like I was rocking him in the nursery yesterday. Savor every second while your little one is a baby!
Please share your secrets for "perfect baby complexion"
And it is scary how fast the time passes. Roscoe is going to be one next month. WHAT?!!?!
I read your blog faithfully every day; I look forward to getting to work and opening it up to see what you have to say. I wish I could write like you do, you are so talented. I wanted to write to my daughter, who was born in January, but I never seem to be able to come up with the words.
Those eyes! That smile! That sweet southerness! He is absolutely perfect. You'll have to keep him far away from the midwestern ladies someday…we love a man from the South…LOL!
Today half a year old, tomorrow college!
Isn't it crazy how sitting up can age a baby? They look more like little people all sitting up and stuff.
K from LifeofK
Aw Blair you got me crying in my coffee. Happy 6-mos. b-day Harrison!
Way to make me cry first thing in the morning, Blair. Heh. Congrats – that was lovely. And they do grow sooo fast. I always thought that was a myth.
Good God that boy looks just like his father! Happy 6 months and keep chugging along Blair, you'll make it out and better than you started before you know it.
You have such a handsome little man! You made me get all teary eyed at my desk
such a sweet letter to Harrison! and such a cute picture.
He sat up on my birthday! I'd like to think it was my influence.
hello mini-nate.
6 months- whew.
Beautiful as always!
Is it just me or is he starting to look more and more like you?? I think he's all Blair in this picture
I am crying and I haven't even had my Diet Dr. Pepper yet! Beautiful letter, beautiful momma, handsome boy. I especially liked the part where you said it hasn't been a fairytale, but it's been YOUR fairytale. So true.
Blair, way to make me cry! I got all teary-eyed at the fairy-tale part because it's so true! Harrison is such a handsome little man. And I think he is starting to look more like you now.
My youngest is three days younger than Harrison…and I won't lie…if it weren't for your letters, there's a good chance I would miss a monthly birthday. I cannot believe six months have already passed. Time is lame.
Darn you for making me cry! (I don't do things like that, you know…)
Lovely letter. I can't believe it's been six months already. My Sophia turns six months old tomorrow.
Time is sure flying.
So sweet – I hope to do the same one day for my future children!
Harrison is so precious
I just want to squeeze him! You are one lucky lady!
*HUGS*
exgf
omg you totally just made me well up. another letter i wish i could've written to my little guy.
What a sweet letter to him. Time really is just zooming by!
gobble! gobble! gobble! he is way too cute!
happy six months harrison!
What a cutie pie. Isn't it the best when they start to laugh those belly laughs?
Harvard Law – no pressure little guy!
I'm crying over my lunch right now. I love your letters to Harrison – I wish I could write like that to my little guy. It's so relatable because he is only a few months older and it seems like just yesterday he was sitting up on his own for the first time.
He is adorable!
I get so weepy over your letters, they are heartfelt and beautiful.
Happy 1/2 birthday to Harrison, and just so you know, the 2nd half of the first year, goes waaaayyy faster than the 1st half. The fun is really just beginning, first words and first steps are coming soon!
so so cute! J will be 8 months a week from today. I can't stand it.
Hi-
Just came to your blog from postpartum progress. as someone with a 9 month old boy, and struggled with horrible ppd and ppa, I really relate to your blog. It is really well written, and I think you are an awesome person and mom. I look forward to following from now on.
This post was so poignant…I feel my baby slipping away, and turning into a toddler. It is weird as this time has been so hard, but I'm so sad to see my baby go. I feel guilty-we're supposed to want our babies to thrive and grow, right? but I already miss that newborn smell as well.
-kp
Time flies incredibly fast. I was so happy on my little boy's birthday. We had great fun celebrating. But later that night, I sat in my bedroom alone and cried while I looked at pictures I'd taken of him over the last year. All I could think was, "Where did my baby go?" I want him to hit those milestones and just smash right through them, and at the same time always remain my sweet, darling baby boy.
Happy 6 months, Harrison! You handsome little guy!
Er, okay. I'm sitting here crying like a bitch. It was the knight in shining armor remark and the "six months/600 years" comment.
He is so gorgeous! I know that once William gets to 6 months I'll be crying all day. Hell, in 2 days when he's 5 months I'm gonna cry. Can't believe time has flown by so fast!
Amazing post. My baby girl turned 6mths on April 10th and it's still amazing and surprising to me! Congrats to little Mr. Harrison….I still think we could set up your son and my daughter….they'd be a hot couple!
Anyway, I loved it and it made me feel mushy inside and I love mushy and other feelings….it means you are alive. Thanks! It was so nice to relate to another mom of a 6mth old! 
Keep on keeping on Blair! You're doing great! And as far as the post with the necklace…."You are always enough!" Every single day! We all have our strong and weak days so hang in there! Harrison always thinks you're enough and so do I! You're human after all and we all have our days! Keep on moving down your path….you're doing great! And remember, don't forget to "Dance!" 
(Loved your "circle of trust" quote! I love that darn movie!)
You're doing great! Keep going!
Your friend, (aka another Southern friend)
Kitty
Waaaaay better than an entry in a baby book logging the bare facts of your son's developmental milestones. What a treasure these words will be for you and your son in years to come.
ahh, that is such a cute little letter. He's absolutely adorable! Love his blue eyes!
Happy 6 months, Harrison!
Man, I feel like a bad mom when I read your letters to him- Shane was 8 months on the 13th & I'm yet to write him a single letter! Not to mention I don't remember ANY of the dates of his "firsts". Ah well.
Ok Blair REALLY??? Now I am crying. I really didn't need that today but I LOVE it so much!!!!! I just wish I wasn't at work looking like a fool with tears in my eyes. lol Keep writing. I love it!!!!
happy 6 months harrison!
what a sweet letter to your little man. i think this is a great idea and i am going to copy you and start posting it on my blog. i have been taking pictures of his every month with the same bear in the same chair but i haven't been writing letters like this. they are a very special keepsake!
he is amazing. you are so blessed