& now I have to remind myself to eat.

I need to start this McFatty Monday off on a different note.  First, THANK YOU for all of your support.  Your emails, your comments, Tweets, everything.  Right now, life is pretty crazy (ha!) & I may not be able to respond to them all, but I do read them, appreciate them, & soak it in.  Second, I don’t know how much I will be writing for awhile.  I may write every day; it may be a week between when you hear from me.  I simply don’t know.  I’m keeping up McFatty Mondays as it has become a wonderful support for so many outside of myself, but aside from that…I just don’t know.  & I may get a few of my blogging friends to run McFatty for me for a little bit.  I hope you understand.  Right now, I am not in a place where I can really write past sharing simple photos or anecdotes.  & honestly, a public breakdown is not my style.  I am hoping that eventually I will feel strong enough to share what is happening right now.

Like a segway smooth as a punch in the stomach, onto the McFattiness.  These days, I have to remind myself to eat but I am still truckin’ along.  Look!  An entire “block” of weight –  GONE.

picture 7 & now I have to remind myself to eat.

I’m almost 20 lbs down & only 0.8 away from my pre-pregnancy weight.  I cannot believe that I can actually say that – I have lost over 18 lbs.  I have NEVER been able to say that before.

What are you most proud of with this journey?  Is there anything you’ve done that you have never accomplished before, or been able to say?

HeirtoBlair500x150 v41 & now I have to remind myself to eat.

Comments

  1. Rinny627 says:

    I'm so sorry you're going through this. I am pretty sure I have it too, but can't afford yet another prescription. So I'm trying to hold out. Here's my McFatty post: http://corinnesshred.blogspot.com/2010/02/wanna-k

  2. Nicole says:

    18 is pretty inpressive! Take your days moment by moment and celebrate them as well.

    MCFatty Monday #…?

  3. No need to apologize for taking care of you first – that's how life works! Congrats on your super weight loss though! I am going to gear up and really push myself now – because you have proven to me that it can be done! :)

  4. True To Life says:

    You have no need to appologize!! Seriously, YOU and your family always need to come first!! Your faithful followers will be here for when you're ready!!
    Congrats on all the weight lost! 0.8 lbs away from your first milestone!! That's AMAZING!!!
    Here's my post! http://outofrealworld.wordpress.com/2010/02/22/wh

  5. Holls says:

    Thanks for keeping up with the McFatty Monday Blair and a big CONGRATS to your weight loss.

    I wish you the best during this time. Things can only get better… stay strong.

    As for McFatty Monday… The past two weeks have been a fail for me and I fear I have ruined the previous 5 weeks of working hard. Hopefully not. Here's my post:
    http://happilyeveryaftermyway.blogspot.com/2010/0

  6. Anne says:

    Blair, you do what is best for you and don't worry about us. I am sure ANY of the posters for McFatty Monday would not at all mind taking the reigns for a bit.

    I am most proud that, despite my lackluster performance, I have not quit. Just keep going!
    http://nikandnoelle.blogspot.com/2010/02/only-wor

  7. Alex says:

    Blair, I have not been blogging about McFatty Monday but 2 weeks ago I started the 3-2-1 slim fast plan (cheesy I know!) and this week added the couch to 5K running plan, and in 2 weeks I am down 9 pounds! I have 8 to go to get to pre-preg which I am sooo stoked about!

    Hang in there girl, we totally understand a lack of posting. You can always do guest blogging for a week or two!

  8. Donna says:

    Hang in there! It's a rough time now but it will get better. Now that you know what you're up against, you can start to recover. There's be ups and downs but don't let the temporary downs discourage you. Over the long run, your recovery will be like the opposite off your weight loss chart that you posted :)

    I think you look beautiful at any weight.

  9. olivea says:

    18 pounds is incredibly impressive, Blair. Working momma, doting wife, and loving daughter, I have no idea how you find the time to do it!
    http://www.thesweetlife-olivea.blogspot.com

  10. olivea says:

    18 pounds is incredibly impressive, Blair. Working momma, doting wife, and loving daughter, I have no clue how you find the time to do it!

    Here's my post:
    http://www.thesweetlife-olivea.blogspot.com

  11. LCW says:

    You're doing what's best for your family, and no one can blame you for that. I'd be happy to help out with McFatty Mondays….let me know. I've been a bad blogger lately and have some catching up to do….but my Not so fit and Fabulous will be up at some point today.

  12. Shanni says:

    I am praying for you! And I am so proud of the progress you have made! I am trying to drop a few pounds also, and I enjoy reading your mcfatty monday posts

  13. Nicci says:

    http://changingtheuniverse.blogspot.com/2010/02/m

    Hey Blair. Dieting and PPD is not a good mix :) Where you have to remind yourself to eat, I have to remind myself to STOP! And I become a slug and spend hours a day on the couch NOT working out.

    Take care of yourself Blair. If you need to take a break (from anything, dieting, writing, whatever), please do. We look forward to your triumphant return!

  14. Laura says:

    SUCCESS! South Beach Phase 1 is complete and I have lost 7 lbs people! I am only ONE pound from my pre-pregnancy weight and I am pumped to keep going to lose the 5-7 extra pounds I was carrying around before I got KU.
    http://getskinnystat.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatty

  15. GreenEyedGal says:

    Do what is best for you and your readers will be here waiting for you when you come back :)
    Congrats on the weight loss! I've lost 15 lbs since 1/1/10 and am 0.6 lbs away from being 10 lbs under my pre-pregnancy weight! But don't be jealous, I'm rocking the scale at 250.6…yuck.

  16. metta1313 says:

    Blair, you must do what is best for you. You need to worry about yourself and your family right now and I'm impressed you are even writing right now.

    And to answer your question, well, I reached my pre-pregnancy weight this week. This is the first time ever that I have set a goal for myself in the weight loss area and actually made it. Check it out here…
    http://365daysofbeing30andamommy.blogspot.com/201

  17. Katie says:

    First, congrats on 18 pounds lost!!! That is amazing!

    Second, you should be proud of yourself for getting help when you needed it. It's nothing to be ashamed of, and you are a strong, brave mama!!!

    Third, this week sucked ass for me.
    http://theazkahles.blogspot.com/2010/02/truce.htm

  18. Mere says:

    Congrats on being so so close to your pre-pg weight … you should be proud!
    You know I love you … big hugs. I'm watching Harrison for you this weekend. :) http://www.thencomebananas.blogspot.com

  19. JJ says:

    Honestly you have GOT to give yourself a major pat on the back. I have incredible support (My husband and I live w/ my parents and I only work part time) and I have not been able to commit to weight loss.
    About the PPD, I just want to share something, you can hold on to it for a time when it clicks or you can roll your eyes at the crazy commenter… but something that has helped me when the "balloon is bigger than the breadbox" (meaning the emotion of depression is so large it fills you) is to remember that it is temporary. Somehow, even in the midst of being consumed by a breakdown, if I observe it happening, even though I feel the breadth of emotion, the observing part of me makes space for the BIG BIG emotion. The observing part of me can remind the break down part of me that in the big picture, this will be over and it's just temporary. Then the observing part of me gives myself a big, big, big compassionate hug and says "You're doing great".
    Check out "Mindful Motherhood" (a book)… sounds like a good good time for you to enjoy it. It has helped me a lot through the tough parts so far.
    LOVE AND HUGS….
    And don't listen to your inner critic. She's just an a$$.

  20. Miranda says:

    Congrats on the weight loss!
    http://prayinghopingwishingwaiting.blogspot.com/2

  21. Jocelyn says:

    That's awesome, Blair! Keep up the good work! :)

    I'm proud of myself for losing as much as I have thus far. I haven't been 153 since my 21st birthday, which was only a year and a half ago, but when you turn 21 and can drink all you want…not so good for the waistline.

    Speaking of drinking, here's my McFatty Monday post in which I battled the brown bottle and won! http://eviemakes3.blogspot.com/2010/02/down-anoth

  22. Beth says:

    Hi Blair, I have been reading your blog for several months now and have enjoyed your experiences of life, motherhood and everything in between! I have never responded to any of your blogs before either.
    I am sorry to hear that you are going through difficult times right now. Just wanted to let you know I have enjoyed reading your blogs. I was "hooked" after the first few readings of them, and have been a "follower" ever since. There is something reassuring (and amusing) about reading other mothers' similar experiences. It's a way to know you're not going through this alone and "yes, this IS normal." Thanks for sharing your experiences. Hang in there, hope the "bump" in your road becomes a little less bumpy soon! Beth from MN

  23. Kathy says:

    Way to go!!!

  24. Pam081206 says:

    Congratulations on your continued weight loss, especially with all you've got going on. I hope things get better for you. And while I'll miss your frequent posts if you take a break, do what you have to do. Absence makes the heart grow fonder after all!

    On a personal note, I'm happy to say another week, another pound gone. http://auntp.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatty-monday-

  25. Leslie says:

    Congrats on the weight loss! As someone who is also (probably) suffering from PPD, let me say that whatever you need to do to feel better, do it. Your readers love you and aren't going to stop reading just because you're having a hard time.

    *hugs*

  26. Victoria says:

    Good luck Blair, you'll get through this! I'm glad you are taking time for yourself and getting the help you need. I only just realized after my son turned 1 that I probably had PPD the first several months but kept blaming it on his colic. I wished I had realized sooner.

    I don't know how much I have lost this week because I weigh myself everyday which I need to stop, but I've lost 18 pounds in total, but still have 35 pounds to go *sigh*

  27. I'm so sorry you are dealing with all of this. I am sure everyone completely understands that you aren't up for constant blogging at the moment. I just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking about you, and I have all the faith in the world that you will beat this! Hang in there, B.

  28. Isha says:

    Lover, we are all so very proud of you. Thank you for keeping this going, because it's been my main motivation. I really hope that we all can help and be your motivation for success on your current journey.
    *smooches*

  29. Hang in their Blair! We will all be understanding if you have to take a break. It'll be a bit boring on the interwebs for awhile :-) but you and your family come first.

    Congrats on the weight loss. Here's my first McFatty post:
    http://disastersindomesticity.wordpress.com/2010/

  30. Stephanie says:

    Way to go on the weight loss. I think it's great that you are focusing on what is important right now and I wish you the best.

    I'm most proud of the fact that I'm sticking to it.
    http://matahouse.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatty-mon

  31. Buckin says:

    HANG IN THERE! Don't worry about your readers, let us worry about you. Congrats on the weightloss, and I'm not a stranger, so please don't hesitate to call if you need something. I'll be happy to help you anyway I can.

    My mcfatty monday post: (and yes, this has indeed helped me stay motivated-I've lost 25 lbs so far). http://spawnofsmith.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatty-

  32. Mrs. Joe says:

    Good for you Blair! You take all the time you need, we'll be waiting patiently until you're ready to return. Kepp up the great McFatty work – you're getting more fabulous each day!

    My (FAIL) entry this week: http://thsoapscumavenger.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcf

  33. Heidi H. says:

    Blair, you will be missed, but it's really great that you're taking the time for yourself to get well. I, too suffered from PPD after my daughter was born. It was fierce and it took some good therapy and several months to really work my way through it. (Not that it will take you that long– besides PPD, a close family friend died about 6 weeks post birth that added to my depression). I want to say you'll be fine, because you will, but as someone who has been there– really in that dark place– I understand that "you'll be fine" hits flat right now. Just know that you're not alone and that there really will be a day when the sun will shine for you again.

    I wrote about my fitness journey for this McFatty Monday. Here it is: http://playgrounddiva.blogspot.com/2010/02/hi-my-

    Have a great week, B!

  34. Kimberly says:

    Hi Blair! You're in my thoughts and prayers through this side journey that you're also going through right now.
    I'm having a hard time blogging, but I wanted to tell you that I joined our cities gym. I have been 1x and then my son and I got sick. :( I am trying to work on the….well, I'm having a mommy moment and can't think of it………but it's not a treadmill, it's something like that, OH, elliptical machine (sp?). These crazy times of trying to lose weight, plan my babies 1 yr b-day party and a dog that is trying to pass obedient school AND FAILED!!!! :)
    Have a good day and know I'll miss reading your posts!!!!!!!!

  35. Heidi says:

    Blair, you come first. I'm so sorry you're going through this but know you have a huge band of supporters who are here to listen to you if you need us!

    Woot on the 18lbs though, that's awesome!!!

    As for McFatty Monday..I'm most proud of the fact that I"m still keeping up with this..I usually quit things too easily!

    Congrats to everyone!!! Keep it up!

    My post this week http://newlywedlife-vinceheidi.blogspot.com/2010/

  36. Penny says:

    18 pounds is incredible! I wish I had the moolah to do Nutrisystem. Except then the hubs would probably starve.

    Anywho, post is found here: http://plmassing.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatty-mon

  37. Shahnaz says:

    Take care of yourself, us internet stalkers will be here while you're away ;)

    You are amazing Blair!! Keep up the great work. I recently started my McFatty: http://shahnyshort.blogspot.com/2010/02/week-3.ht

  38. Ashley says:

    Your amazing Blair, and not just because you lost 18 pounds (woot to that!) but because YOU are amazing!

    Here is my post, more about my adorable kids becuase my Mondays are still Mcfatty and less Mcskinny
    http://rowserfamily.blogspot.com/2010/02/holy-cow

  39. Ashley says:

    Hey Blair! Just stopped by to check on you. I am so inspired that your weight loss has stayed on track in the midst of your other trials. Hang in there girl!! I really know where you are coming from, as I also suffered from PPD. I enjoy your blog, but I totally understand your decision to lay low for awhile. I love to blog and I'm pretty darn entertaining, if I toot my own horn. Though not as good as you, goddess of all things bloggy! If you need some new guest writers to fill-in, please check out my blog and let me know if I am worthy to fill your shoes! http://gurskigossip.blogspot.com Feel free to scroll around!

    By the way, I tagged you in a fun little questionaire thing in my blog.
    http://gurskigossip.blogspot.com/2010/02/tag-your

    Just do it if you can or if you want to; I tagged you before I read that you may be taking a hiatus. So no worries if you can't….just wanted to show off your blog on mine to share your awesomeness with my readers!

  40. You're rocking McFatty Mondays! I obviously picked the wrong weight loss method! :)

    Not much to report on this week. The chocolate and cupcakes won. http://marblesrolling.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatt

  41. Joanne says:

    My McFatty Post
    http://crazylife-jacksonsmommy.blogspot.com/2010/

    Blair, I understand waiting so long on getting help. I myself did the same thing. I thought it would get better and at first it was going back to work, then adding school into the mix then it was just getting a little more sleep. I hope you take care of yourself and get the help you need! Good luck with everything! Oh and congrats on the weight loss! That is awesome!!

  42. SusanK says:

    Just read your post about PPD. I am so sorry that you have to go through that. Good luck, and I really hope you feel better soon. You are doing awesome with the weight loss :)
    Susan

  43. jen says:

    A big congrats on the weight loss! Your dedication is paying off :)

  44. Anngee410 says:

    Blair- I want to say that I think it is incredibly brave of you to share such a personal experience as PPD on your blog. Many women suffer thru this and are ashamed to admit they even have it. I think it is really inspirational that you have not only admitted that you need help, but have given us a glimpse into what it's really like to deal with it.
    That being said, you need to take whatever time it is you need to deal with what you are going thru. We'll all be here when you get back.
    I read an article that suggests dieting PP can actually lead to PPD. I don't know if I agree with it 100%. I think it's hard to deal with the body issues you have after giving birth and it can be depressing when no clothes fit and you dont feel sexy anymore. With that said, I also think it is hard to commit to a diet when you are tackling a multitude of other things like being a new mom, trying to balence work and family, and still carving out time for yourself.
    My point: I hope you find a way to make it all work! And if you do please share with the rest of us!!! I wish you nothing but the best! http://imo-fwiw.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatty-mond

  45. Blair, don't worry about us. Worry about you. :) Hope all is going well for you.
    http://hotpinkvixen.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatty-

  46. Alanna says:

    18 lbs in what, 7, 8 weeks??? That's amazing!!! I hope you keep trying to squeeze in some exercise. The positive endorphins from working out might help you to feel better, especially with the other steps you are taking. Now this is all coming from someone who has ZERO experience with kids, PPD and the like, so take it with a grain (or two) of salt.

    I also hope you come back to us when you are ready for it. I found you after my first miscarriage at the beginning of 2009 and, although not on quite the same path as you, have been filing away your experiences for whenever we do get to become parents. I hope you feel up to posting again in the future… I need to know what happens after 4 months of having a baby! ;)

    I finally got around to a McFatty update, after only a four week absence. LOL. http://alannasworkoutblog.blogspot.com/2010/02/mc

  47. I just found your blog a few weeks ago and I just love it. I relate so much to what you have to say. Please do not feel the need to apologize for taking care of yourself. You do what you need to do.

  48. Your weight loss is amazing. I jumped on the Mcfatty bandwagon, too.

    I know these words may sound empty coming from some random stranger on the internet, but your blog has really helped me during some tough times. Your kind words and thoughtful phrases gave me hope. Your struggle with pregnancy helped me through my own dark times struggling in my workplace. Whenever I feel sad or depressed your witty and kind words cheer me up. I hope that we can give you support and hope through this hard time. I struggle with depression and have throughout my life. KNow that you are a wonderful mother, a great wife, a kind daughter, and a beautiful amazing person. I hope that you will be blessed with ease to go through this difficult battle. If you ever need anyone to talk to, and I know i haven't commented much, please feel free to email me or look me up.

    I send good thoughts, vibes, and karma through this difficult time, which no one can truly comprehend another person's inner demons. I am sure countless other internet and real life buddies would be there in a heartbeat if you need it.

    All my love from someone who dealt with demons and lived vicariously through your beautiful world,
    Elizabeth

  49. Julie says:

    Blair-You are in my thoughts and prayers during this time! I am sure you will come through this difficult time just fine and with your sense of humor in tact and better than ever. Everyone has struggles and there is no need to feel bad about that! I hope you start to feel more like you really soon!
    My McFatty post… http://jvanddv.blogspot.com/2010/02/mcfatty-monda

  50. Tena says:

    Hi Blair,

    I've also been struggling with depression recently. Just not the PP kind- I ran out of Zoloft, Grandma died, and PMS hit all last week. I fell of the weightloss bandwagon for a week or so as a result. I am so proud of you for keeping on keeping on. I know you don't feel up to blogging much right now but I encourage you to keep writing. Keep a journal (sounds lame, I know) or write short stories or something just as an out for your feelings- I cannot tell you how many times writing has gotten me through the "deepest depths of despair" with my own depression and mental health issues. You are doing a wonderful job, sweetie, keep it up!

    Hugs,
    Tena

  51. layla'smommy says:

    You should most definately stay away from anything to do with the computer! It will refresh your mind to focus on the real world. I think we all get sucked into cyberlife and forget about how important real life is. Don't worry about keeping up appearances or being the #1 mommy blog. Take care of yourself and you family first. Best of luck to you.

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